God, why can’t you break my heart anymore?
Have I hardened it that much?
I just don’t understand.
I remember when our hearts beat as one!
I remember when I lived your compassion,
When I felt your pain,
When I cried your tears!
Oh yes, Lord! I remember when our hearts broke as one!
Surely this change did not happen over night!
No, it happened over nights, many many nights.
Every night I chose the world over you.
Every night I decided that I didn’t need you.
Every night I felt like the cost of following you was too high.
But how could I have not noticed myself changing?
Lord, there is much wrong with me.
More so then I can even see, and what I see destroys me!
God, look at me! See the distress I am in!
How can I be so broken when you are in me?
Am I letting you in me at all?
My heart has become someone else’s, Lord.
Oh please, Lord, take it back!
Break me down!
Bring me back to where I once was!
I want my heart to break for the things that break yours!
Lord, I want my every heart beat to drive me towards your love!
Make me aware of where I have fallen from you!
Show me the way, Lord!
Mold me so that I am more like you than ever before!
Show me the depths of your love that I never fathomed existed!
I give my heart to you, again, Lord.
Make it yours.